I haven’t made anything for a while so there’s nothing to share with you all, art wise, but let’s talk about mental health for a minute. Ugh.

Shout out to all of you that struggle with anxiety. This shit is hard. I want to be left alone but at the same time it feels very isolating. I get annoyed with hearing myself explain my anxiety issues with loved ones and friends. I get tired having to carry this extra thing around. I get tired of getting advice on how to cope with this thing I carry. I get tired of overthinking. I have ambitions and hopes and I always want to fast forward to a better time when I’m out of this mental state, but I’m learning to appreciate right now. Even here, life is worth being present for. All of the in-between is what makes up the whole story. Plus, what if I get “there” and I’m still the same? I have to be ok with whoever that person is. I’m working on it. I’m finding my way.

Creating always helps me with this, but it’s always the first thing to get cut out when I’m overwhelmed.

Someday I’ll learn, but on the way I’ll keep losing track, I’ll probably keep disappearing and coming back. I’ll probably keep struggling to set boundaries. But I’ll keep on fighting.

Since I have no drawings or crafts to share with you, here is a picture of the real me these days, mid anxiety attack. My cat is always by my side supporting me. Ha! You do what you gotta do for self care. This is 30 during the apocalypse, I guess. Could be worse. feeling lost, but grateful.

I know I’m not alone. Aren’t you tired? I feel for you, friends. Keep on trying. Keep on creating. We’ll be ok.

 

Music Friends: the title refers to a lyric from “Sprained Ankle” by Julien Baker